What are they thinking ??,, turning someone out on the street, who cannot take care of themselves. My heart crys out,, you must do something ! you must take care of this! you must help , and yet there is nothing I can do, no way I can help, without destroying myself.
And that would be wrong. I know I have to stay safe and in a protected place. I know I cannot help this situation. I cannot understand how the world can be so cruel as to offer people a way to destroy themselves and then pretend to offer help and that help is only about money.. I know it is reality.. but it BITES!
I do love the man who is my Father, but I cannot expose myself to his exploitation even though at this time it seems he does not know he is doing it, it is a habit. I am sad inside and my heart is hurting but I cannot help,, and I know this.. but the temptation to try screams at me like a child screams in the dark having a horrible nightmare! I cry to my real PAPA,, Please help me to stay strong and keep on this pathway of healing you have placed me on.
I will not fear,, I will not fear the darkness.
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